Is It He Who I Crave?

    Is it the man who I crave or simply the idea of what he represents? Although I try to distance myself from the realities displayed brilliantly before my eyes, I am left wondering what might exist if I ignored the boundaries or simply pushed them aside just a little. Life is much simpler when he is away, for my mind is easily occupied by other things. Breathing becomes a bit easier as I attempt to forget the overwhelming feelings that take hold when he is standing in front of me. I enjoy my time with him; That is easily understood. But then I find myself lost in the moments that seem somewhat meaningless and silly at the time, the ones that only leave me wanting so much more. Perhaps it is merely the anticipation of the unknown that keeps me holding on or maybe it is he who is afraid to let me wander too far away.-